this is not my story.

this is not my story, but rather another's story.

Ben Breedlove's story
this is his story (part 2)

please take some time to actually read and watch these videos. its truly a touching story.

winter break day 9

my break is so unproductive. unfortunately, i have discovered this new tv show, i'm not sure if any of you heard of it, its kinda a new thing. its called Parks and Recreation.

just kidding. obviously.

but i have also found tons of magazines in my room, and I'm trying to figure out stuff to do with them.

here are some pictures i have found that are hilarious.

who doesn't love patrick star. or valentines with him.

good advice right here

this card is completely factual.

this is not funny. but Coldplay is going to be at the Verizon center in Washington DC on July 8th and i'm going to see them :D i can't wait!!!

new project/idea

the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
-eleanor roosevelt

i think college is finally having some affect of me. I'm trying this whole "creative" thing. well see how far it can take me....

the "new" planking

whilst laura skypes her friends from college...i found this hilarious video on memebase :)

my love goes out to my friend grace who fell and got a booboo on her head :( WUV YEWWW!

winter break day 2

it feels sooo good to be home. i feel like today is going to be a multiple posts in one day/night ordeal...but i don't even care!

I'm going to make a list of things to do whilst home.

1. get rid of clothing items i absolutely do not wear any longer.
2. clean closet. FOR GOOD
3. get christmas presents in order. (i.e. actually buy them...)
4. figure out whether or not I'm actually going to see Coldplay on July 8th in D.C.
5. go to Goodwill and replenish my Christmas sweaters that have been so conveniently misplaced my someone in my family.
6. buy accessories for my laptop that i have been refusing to buy because i have been "busy"

so far thats all i can think of to actually do. accomplishments as of day 2 of winter break consist of number...

1. i have parted with 2 sweaters, both purple surprisingly.

2. i have some things already bought (2 things for my dad, a thing for my mom, a thing for someone else that i forget about, and a thing for danielle) and I'm online right now planning on buying this for my sister...if i could actually stand up and get my credit card......

6. now this one is going to take a little effort on your part. i've narrowed it down to a few choices but i still need YOUR HALPP.

• passing me by
• daydream
• cheshire cat grin--laura dislikes this, and that kinda matters i suppose seeing as though since i live with her, she'll be seeing it the most.
• daisy
• wonderland

pleasee let me know which you hate the least, puts you in a good mood,ya know...stuff like that.

one last note before i end this post. college. it'll do a lot to a person. things that i dislike that it does....it almost inhibits the ability for one person to just have a good cry every once in a while. when you feel like your world is just ending, or that its just so incredibly hard and you just need to lock yourself in the bathroom and have a good cry about really...everything yet nothing at all...you can't do that in college. theres always someone in the bathroom. always someone in your room...or knocking on your door, or wanting to talk to you. you really don't get that much privacy. thats one of the reasons why I'm happy to be home. to be able right now to just sit on my computer while painting my nails, cleaning my room and watching youtube videos without anyone interrupting. thats why last night after i got home,and everyone was asleep in my house to just be able to take everything in. 

this quarter hasn't been the most stressful few months or so of my life, but they have been pretty new, strange, difficult and sometimes overwhelming. i've met so many new friends, some that have or i'm pretty sure will becoming my best friends in such a short amount of time. i've become closer with people i didn't think i would, but also have become more distant with friends i've just been so used to seeing all the time. i've stayed up late doing homework, being completely stressed out. i've started talking to some boys that are complete ass holes, yet i find myself talking about them, thinking about them more often than i'd like to. i've texted certain people who i wish i didn't text while possibly being a little intoxicated. i've wasted the day away, knowing full well i have other obligations to uphold. i've found out about some pretty hard news about my dad, and am still trying to sort out my feelings. 

needless to say, i've done a lot, and it's taken its toll. around this time last year, i could just have a little melt down here or there and then call it a day. but at college, i never got the chance to just let it all go, by myself that is. so when i came home yesterday from my brothers high school band concert, i finally just had at it. i stood in my room, looked around, and just lost it. i started thinking of all the things i miss, things in high school meant so much, or things that i just have a history with. i just started sobbing every time i turned to look at new thing, i thought about where it came from, memories with it, how life used to be. i. was. bawling. 

then, all of sudden, in the middle of my room, i stopped. 

i looked at my ohio state chair, and smiled. 

as a line from a song that i so frequently get stuck in my head beautifully says...

"I'm where, and who i want to be"

i'm still the same old me, i'm just....how do you say....grown up. i looked at all those things and related them to my life now. 

i don't know if any of that made sense. i just know i had to spew it out before i went. 

i guess all I'm trying to say is a good cry everyone once in a while never hurt anyone.

go bucks

apologetic

"last post: Novemeber 22"

today is December 7th.

^what^finals^does^to^you^

anyway just a quick post to inform you that "yes indeed....i am NOT dead!"

ill be home tomorrow :) so i can actually post like a normal human being...i have some idears.

all will be right with the world :)

go bucks.

MUCK FICHIGAN!!

as you all know, i happen to BLEED scarlet and gray.

go buckeyes!

well tonight is the night we've been waiting for my dears. its mirror lake jump. ACKK!!! i can't wait! i know it'll be so extremely cold, but its well worth it. its something everyone who goes to OSU should do at least once! theres only one part of the equation missing....which hopefully we will obtain by tonight. 

i've been whistling "We don't give a damn for the whole state of michigan" all day today. its rocked. heres a poem that a girl here wrote. inspirational.

Twas the night before Mirror Lake jump, when all throughout town,

All the Buckeyes were preparing, their spirits not down

The M’s were all blocked with red tape here and there

In order to forget that school way up there.

The frat boys were smashing beer cans on their heads

While thoughts of chill water filled them with dread

Away to the Lake they flew like a flash,

Tore through campus in order to make a splash.

The moon’s reflection on the lake, it shown

Was wrinkled and rippled as the crowd continued to grow

When, what to my wandering eyes should appear,

But half the student body and many cans of beer.

With a shout and a cheer, so lively and slurred,

I knew in a moment my thoughts were becoming blurred.

More rapid than eagles the alcohol hit me,

I jumped, and I swam, and the whole school was with me.

Now, we don’t give a damn for that state way up North!

We don’t give a damn for the Blue, of course!

Drive, drive on down the field! To the end zone we’ll fly!

With Miller and Boom, we never say die!

As dry leaves fall and are trampled to bits,

I hope drunken girls choose not to show their tits.

So out of lake in a hurry, I flew

Singing hail to the Buckeyes, and fuck you Blue!

And then, in a fury, I heard from behind,

The running and screaming of a friend of mine,

As I anticipated the shock, and my body hit the water

I couldn’t help but laugh and began to totter

Dressed in scarlet and gray, from my head to my feet

And excited and ready for the rest of Beat Michigan Week

I jumped again, embracing the cold

And looked quite happy, despite the dirt and mold

The students, how proud! Their songs, how strong!

Their voices together, their spirits were loud

Their cheers came together as one in a flash

Creating the perfect collegiate mash.

So the chattering begins in my teeth

As I realize all the grime hidden beneath

I climb out of the water and onto the grass

Realizing in the morning I would not make it to class

Cold and drunk, like all those around me

The sight before me was still astounding

With a towel and my friends, we head on home

To shower and hope all the germs don’t cause a syndrome

We sang about all the damns we don’t give

In a night that we all want to relive

And filled Ohio State with the hope of a win

Regardless of players like Joe Bauserman

I scurried on home, afraid of hypothermia

Ready to deal with the hangover tomorra’

But I heard from behind, as the Lake left my sight

“Happy Beat Michigan Week to all, and to all a good-night!”

Written by Regina Black on 11/20/2011

 heres the link to it as well

"i await your response"

i just got this email....some people just make me wonder about the world.....

Hope you get this on time, I made a trip to Swansea, Wales and had my bag stolen from me with my passport and credit cards in it. The embassy is willing to help by letting me fly without my passport, I just have to pay for a ticket and settle Hotel bills. Unfortunately for me, I can't have access to funds without my credit card, I've made contact with my bank but they need more time to come up with a new one. I was thinking of asking you to lend me some quick funds that I can give back as soon as I get in. I really need to be on the next available flight. Western Union transfer is the best option to send money to me. I can forward you details on how you can get the funds to me. You can reach me via email or the hotel's desk phone, the numbers are, +447031804805 or +447031804806. I await your response..... Elaine.

google+

months ago i sent a request to be apart of the google+ fad...when it was cool when only a few people could have one.

i totally forgot about it......untill the other day.

i got an email from google saying that i could now join...i was quite hesitant cause it didn't seem worth wild...and imagine this...ITS NOT.

i made it...and literally theres nothing to do.

worthless.

#mylifeissodifficult

today my "window" has opened to schedule classes for next quarter. YAY!
i don't know how the university determine who gets to schedule first or whatever....but I'm glad i finally get to.

some of my friends have either learning disabilities and got to schedule early october, and some got to schedule about 3 weeks ago if they are in honors. but no, boring little me did not get to schedule classes.

until now :)

unfortunately i didn't think of this about 2 hours ago when i left my dorm and now i don't have my stuff to remind me what i actually have to take....so i have 45 minutes to kill when i could have most of my classes scheduled already. boo. but HEY! plus side....one of the classes i have to take (Theory II) is already all full and have all been wait listed! yeah!!!

...

this weekend i went home, and had an awesome time...it was totally chill, i went shopping, and i hung out with my amazing friends :) but mostly i got to be with my family...which is the best. but....i feel like i could have prolonged my visit home even longer, considering ill be back for thanksgiving...which is about 2 weeks away?!!? whhhattt?!

41 days till christmas :D which is awesome...but also kinda sad...cause that means lent is starting.

let me explain.....some of you might not know, but i am indeed a very religious person and go to church and all that jazz....i happen to be Orthodox. and in our religion we have a few lenten seasons throughout the year...including nativity fast (the fast before christmas..obviously) its for 40 days which means....yepp it starts TOMARRAH! boo....

usually when one fasts in the orthodox church, we are asked to not eat meat or dairy and to be more aware of ourselves and so on....i'm really going to try my best...i mean there should be plenty of vegetarian options here...but don't worry....you'll be sure to know if i mess up haha

finally note....my wrist has been fine! up till about friday or saturday...cause i hadn't played in a day or maybe  a little bit more. which is quite unfortunate considering i really need to get decent at piano to test out of piano 1 so i can take piano 2 next quarter so i can be on track....

#firstworldproblems
check it outt

home at last.

so i just got in not too long ago. I'm now sitting in my nice warm bed in my cold dark room...alone. i love my roommates and i especially love OSU, but theres really nothing like being home for the first time since you've been away. i mean, i feel like my room at ohio state in now myy room. it has all that i really need...and now when i come back to westlake, instead of thinking oh what have i forgotten there that i need to bring back to osu, but its what have i forgotten at my new home at Ohio State that i don't have here....

its a weird feeling...but I'm super excited to be back :)

mostly cause i feel like me mom needed me to be home. i guess the house just hasn't been the same with me gone (and I'm being completely serious here). my brother doesn't really call people to hang out that much...hes just content with being by himself. i on the other hand always had people over or was always talking about something...or what have you. its almost like the house is just...too quiet without me.

also, we just learned of some pretty tough news.

my dad went to the dentist the other week cause he had a weird bump or something in the gum by his tooth on his upper right jaw. the dentist thought it'd be nothing, but the sent in a biopsy for testing. they had to send it to two different guys, the first one didn't know what in the world it could be. the second doctor had to test it a few times before he was certain. turns out my dad has cancer. in his jaw. its called osteosarcoma. since this is all still so new to us, we're not too sure what this means. we don't know what stage it is, we don't know how serious this is....all we know is that yes he will have to go through chemotherapy and all that jazz. if you could keep him and our family in your prayers/thoughts that would be greatly appreciated.

lots of people keep asking me how I'm doing (in regards to this situation) and i really don't know what to say. i found out on tuesday, and at school...at first i took it really hard...but being away from it, I'm sad to say that i really just didn't want to think about it. so i didn't. i only thought about it when i brought it up to a few people and when we talked about it. the only time it really hit home of how serious this might be was when i was joking around with benji about how awesome this will be when he's all better and over with for whatever reason and he said "well i hope we can get to that point..." completely serious....


this is way too much to think about right now.

i just thought you all should know, in case my posts seem more dreary than normal.



lets end on a happy note.

its supposed to snow tomorrow. yay!!

okay  lets end on two happy notes....

this picture is absolutely stunning (in my opinion)

halloween...on a monday?!

i haven't posted in a while....SO SORRY!!!

so halloween is over yay! the weekend...seemed to be never ending. i mean, there were parties friday and saturday...but people were still partying hard sunday and monday. i mean, i saw someone dressed up for funzies around campus on monday and i was like "da frack is that person doing?!" then i realized....oh wait...ITS HALLOWEEN!

derp.

sooo benji started texting me again :)

and wanting to hang out :)

sooo...we have been :) and its awesome! mostly...i mean....

see....theres been a little bit of an issue lets say between benji and becca....and so now...they aren't talking. cause becca hates him. awesome.
grant it, benji was being himself when he upset her...very very persistent and kinda annoying....but she freaked out. so now she doesn't like being in the same room or party as him...

I'm giving her a week to chill da fuck out, and then I'm gonna say something.

i mean, iv obviously been upset that i haven't been able to see my best friend in weeks and now that were hanging out again, i don't want it to have to interfere with me and her being roommates!

grr x10000000000000000000

plus side: buckeyes won :)


so i have interesting news that some of you all might not know about...im somewhat interested in a boy. yes yes its super cute and fun.....why I'm talking him on here to you...i have no idea. so he's really cute, not too tall yet still taller than me, a smart ass most of the time, funny. but him being a smart ass also means that he's just an ass most of the time...which sucks. i mean i feel like theres something going on between us...as do other people, but they could be saying that just to say it....

anyway nothing has happened so far except for a few drunken meetings, i.e. he's drunk while I'm not...or i am while he's not.....

ill keep you all posted. right now I'm trying to just settle down about this whole thing and just try to be better friends with him i suppose...thats thing thing to do. right?

go bucks!

things that are not fun include being cold late at night, not getting a lot of sleep, living off of 1 battery bar on your phone for about 12 hours, feeling like shit but still have to do MacGAMUT*.

things that are fun include being at ohio state, hanging out with awesome friends, not being afraid to be yourself or sticking by your beliefs.

but what is especially fun?
osu beating wisconsin last night :)

*if you don't know what this is, consider yourself lucky. its aural training nonsense.

hashtag

how am i to creep on peoples blogs when they never post?

#firstworldproblems

note to self

once you blog about someone...i guys you become best friends......??

:) that means that why yes i have 2 new best friends :D

this guy

and this lady

Angel and Laura :)

i just learned angel played baseball. i believe him. he was a "fuckin pro". hot damn! 

plus laura things i have a speech impediment cause i say "hur" or "eria" instead of "hair" or "area"

yay new friends :)

but no worries!! i still love all my old friends just as much! :D

especially zazu who i got a package from today!!! i love it :) your in bed though right now so ill text you tomorrow...love you!!!

one of those days...

one of my very best friends in the whole entire world, grace came to visit this weekend. needless to say, we had a blast.

but honestly grace so much happened after you left its frakin ridiculous.

first off i had to finish a paper in like an hour and half and it ended up being absolute shit. but thats alright....i hate english anyway haha

anyway...

one of my roommates and i are apparently in a bit of a disagreement, so when i get back to the dorm around 12:15 tonight, the three of us are going to talk about it. 

usually these situations aren't a big deal for me, but for some reason i've been incredibly nervous all day and just very uncomfortable. i dislike this feeling. a lot.

plus nothing's really been going right all day. boo.

but i really got to know a new friend today, Angel Blake Algarin.

he is so funny, super cute and so fun to be around. but today we both had homework to do and we really cracked down. unfortunately we (of course) got side tracked, and ended up having some heart-to-hearts with each other. i told him about my benji drama, he told me about some of his family drama. at first when i met this kid i though we would never be friends, just of who i thought he was having out with. i was OBVIOUSLY wrong. i'm so glad i met him. he can catch onto subtle hints when things aren't going well, he's just a very intuitive young boy :) the only reason I'm talking about him so much is cause he's sitting right across from me doing homework and i have nothing else to do.

but my life kinda does rock, he lives kinda close to westlake and he has been to Crocker Park, the shopping plaza by us, numerous times, so we are gonna hang out all the time on breaks (hopefully!!)

other than this random roommate drama, OSU life has been amazing. my classes are going well. i love the library. i love the union. i love the trees. i love the weather. i love choir. i love ladies first (an a cappella group comprised of 16 girls that i tried out for and got in yay!). i love my new friends. i love going out, especially with laura :) i lovely comfy bed, erthang!

although last weekend my family came to visit, and it made me realize i do miss them quiet a lot. my mom wants me to come home sometime before thanksgiving. well...i think she wants me to. she never said it out loud but she insinuated it. so keep your ears open, veronica might be sharing a visit with all her westlake friends soon :) 

tis the season...already??

i honestly cannot wait for the christmas season.

it is taking all the strength i have to NOT listen to christmas music on my laptop right now.


for aural contextual listening homework yesterday, there was a melody we had to dictate. 


sol la sol mi  sol la sol mi re' re' ti do' do' sol la la do' ti la sol la sol mi la la do' ti la  sol la sol mi re' re' fa' re' ti do' mi'do' sol mi sol fa re do


...did you guess it? or at least try and sing it through??


well its silent night :)


plus the weather has been changing quiet severely lately.
i mean one day its like 81 and then the next its like 52 or 49. da frick?!


but what got me today was this...


toms...why dost thou tempt me so?

so i ordered these. along with a toms flag and some stickers...cause I'm running out anyway.

ordering from them was a mess and didn't work for the first 3 times...but hey! 4th times a charm...right....?

anyway i should be getting them in about 6-8 days.

i know i know...."but veronica, you've been wanting red toms for 2890 years now!"

its true. i have been! but with this whole christmas thing coming up in less then 69 days, and me having no job right now, i have sent 3 links to my mom of shoes i would desire.

red cord classics
carpe diem classics
university red rope sole classics

let me know which you like best...mostly cause i can't decide!!!!!!

btw thanks to laura for helping me narrow this list down... A LOT!
plus thanks to lydia for baking such delicious cupcakes!

my family came down for family weekend....and surprisingly it was actually kinda fun!

i also read a book.

more to come on that :)

enjoy the little things.

i miss having milk every day at my disposal whenever i want.

like when you order cookies and get an extra milk from a friend just so you can have it in the morning.

yeah. 

good ol honey bunches of oats...how i've missed you so!

its 9:14 on friday morning.
last night we went to bed around 3:00 staying up to talk to our friends, most of them gay.
they thought it would be fun to all tell their "coming out" stories.
then we had a little dance party in the room, which was fun i suppose :)

ANYWAY THIS IS NOT WHAT THIS POST IS ABOUT!

see what i do when it is much too early to talk? i don't know how to type nor do i know what to say, NOR do i know how to type. this is taking me literally 38490 years to write right now. i keep forgetting spaces in-between all my words...wow.

anyway.
i wanted to talk about this whole bed situation, through a letter to my real bed at home.

Dear Bed,
We have been through a lot over the years, getting sick, staying up crying all night over boys, making you, long peaceful naps...the ups and the downs. Thank you for all your support, and springy-ness, especially when i was younger and would jump on you. But honestly bed, i don't miss you as much as i thought i would. I know, thats not the nicest thing to say, but i had to. You deserve to know the truth! this bed I'm sitting on right now at OSU is just as comfy as you. This bed almost reminds me of you. i set up my blankets so there are many, just like when I'm on you. There is a fan blowing at me, so i my face is cold yet my legs are still warm, just like when I'm home. There are two differences though between you two beds, the sheets and length. My mom thought it'd be a good idea to get jersey sheets. HA. not so much. They are somewhat comfortable, but i prefer my normal cottony ones much more. and now, the length. No offense bed, but when i would snuggle down in my bed, and sleep on my arm a foot away from the head board, more often than not, my feet would touch the end. I'm not saying its cause i'm too tall, cause I'm not. It's cause i would sprall out too much. but not in here. my feet almost NEVER touch the base board.
Please  don't be sad. I'll be home soon!
Much love,
Veronica

why???

**
why have i not gotten my theory book yet?
why do i have so much english homework?
why are none of my pictures ever downloaded, ever?
why am i always so tired?
why have i not narrowed down a song to sing at my audition on thursday, nor do i have a song to sing in front on my peers tomorrow in studio?
why was this weekend so strenuous on my voice?
why do i not have more pictures in room?
why do people hate laundry?
why is there no kitchen/sink in our dorm, and if there is, why do i not know about it?
why does my theory teacher think he's hilarious?
why do i have so many shoes, yet no shoes to wear?
why are people so bad at emailing me back?
why can't i move my desk and like how its set up?
why can't i stop bitching about people so much?
why can't i find my Chapstick?
why did seth give me a weird look as he opened the door for me?
why is that incessant loud pitch even happening right now?
why is adele so talented?
why is iPhoto so gay?
why won't virtualpiano.net ever work for me?
whys it so cold outside?
why do i have so many questions??


**random questions throughout the day.

tidbits of information

so that new design thing? kinda freakin me out...i don't really understand it. especially since i type

like

this.


it wouldn't work for me i think...

anyway...little tidbits of information about myself

• i like getting packages in the mail :) or mail for that matter! thanks mom and dad for sending me noms! and fun stuff too!!
• don't touch mah shit por favor.
• don't talk during my shows i like. like srsly. we were watching glee today in my room and literally every 5 seconds people kept asking questions. now i understand thats not their fault, they don't know the show, they don't watch it. but it was just frustrating for me, as anyone can imagine. so next week I'm hoping to find someone else's room, helpfully new friends, to watch with. 
• I'm usually awesome at eating burritos, cause ya know, thats a talent....not. but today i made a huge mess...like i had to go downstairs and check out a vacuum. #embarrassing. 
• to stay awake in class, i must take notes. lame.
• the most singing i've done as a vocal music education is not in my vocal lesson or class, no its in my aural class. awesome.
• i love new friends. like seriously. i do. like ryan, and skye, and steve, and angel, and eric, and h :)
• apparently i (and possibly some of the people i hang out with) come off as, not intimidating, but kinda douche. i totally can see that cause we all know each other and were just our loud obnoxious selves. but i've learned that just because people seem like a-holes doesn't mean they actually are. so guys i thought were ass wipes i'm giving a second chance. and girls i thought are stand-offish and bitchy I'm going to be nice to. cause everyone is not always as they appear originally.
• as much as a people person as i am, i really hate being around people sometimes. like a lot.
• i feel sympathy for you becca, but srsly. laura and i do NOT need to hear you try and patch up your relationship with daniel whilst doing homework... like srsly

this is me doing homework. enjoy.

attractive, i know.

random thoughts

so i met this guy.

we barely talk ever.

i know his first name.

and i found him on Facebook.

is that weird to add him as a friend?

random thoughts at 3:45 in the morning....

dorm decorations :)

so this is what i have so far up in my dorm :)

let the gawking begin.

3 rules to live by in college.

ask questions.

make mistakes.

and get messy.




rules to live by in college. or at least, thats what my theory professor said. which is so true. thank you Ms. Frizzle from the Magic School Bus for enlightening us with such powerful words.

BAKER LOVE

college life summary thus far.

• changing your shoes from toms, flip flops, to boots, is almost always inevitable when dealing with shit loads of rain.
• showering situations are sometimes stressful when there is only 2 showers for about 16 girls........
• luckily, showering situations can sometimes be avoided. ways around showering as often...
• when its raining bring shampoo with you and go to town,
• don't give a fuck what people think and only shower once a week, or...
• get a perm and not have to shower every day :) [i choose this one]
• find friends who enjoy the same shows as you. i.e. the roast of charlie sheen. its is fun to watch with friends, but its also fun to watch with your roommates.
• DISCLAIMER:your roommates actually have to be awesome ones and WANT to watch good ol charlie get made fun of
• FIGURE OUT THE WIFI. but don't let too many people know you know what your doing. you don't want to be the I.T. guy...sorry steven!
• attended as much as you can, but only if you want to. peoplee will love you no matter what. 
• embrace where you are and who your with. BAKER LOVE!!
• if you don't see your best friend from high school, don't be alarmed. (or at least try not to be...)
• even if you weren't the best of friends with someone in high school, give them a chance! they might turn out to be someone you can hang out with all the time hur in college!
• your shits bout to get messed up. LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT. my friend told me he is STILL moving stuff around, cause he can't decide where he likes stuff...hes been in college for a month.
• don't be afraid to ask for help. be it another first year, your roommate, a friend, your RA or an upperclassmen who you just happen to have their number so you can call/text them with any questions you might have ever. (this upperclassmen situation works most ideally if they have the same major as you)
• put up pictures. they strike up conversations and remind you of how great old friends are. 
• GO BUCKS!

suffice to say, college is going great :)

lots of my friends call me vron...so check this out.

this video is hurlarious....

yes it is more than 7 minutes. but it'll be the 7 funniest minutes of your lyffeee.

college :)

is at college baby :) aww yeahhh....ill be posting more in a bit but...for now i just wanted you all to know I've made it here safe and soundly :)

too lazy to type

i had a happy birthday :) I'm now 18...and i haven't done much 18 year oldish.....but its all good :)

my wrist is starting to hurt again, probably from playing guitar hero with aaron...and from just not giving a shit...

tonight was the last night i'd be seeing adam for months. i miss him already :(



these are all topics that could be described in great detail, but i don't feel like getting all deep and stuff at 2 in the morning....

borders

why yes! i have changed the layout of my blog! thank you for noticing :)

borders is closing, as all of the world knows. i went there today just to see what there was to see...and i ended up getting 6 books...for $13. thats sad. walking into borders was depressing.

but at least i got my reading stocked up for the next six million years!


What I Like About You is such an awesome show!

i hope you find what your looking for...

i <3 stumbleupon.

HAHAHA

going to the zoo again tomorrow. aww yeah.

one thing

this song hits me. i know it has a deep meaning, and for me, it could mean a lot of different things, i just haven't yet found it out. but regardless, its a fantastic song!!

One Thing Lyrics

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line

[Chorus:]
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

[Chorus x2]

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

Gussy Sews

so a few weeks ago i had my graduation party.

i got a lot of money,but also a LOT of cool gifts!!!

one particular gift has really stood out to me. it was a set of bags by these two girls/lady/women from my church. they're both married, but i've either known them or their families for ever so, lets just say they're family friends. anyway, they got me these totally awesome bags!!! thanks Natalie and Katie!

this awesome tote!!

this super cute clutch thingy....

and also a smaller little bag. 

they are so adorable! in each bag there is a card with the info of the lady who makes all this awesome stuff. but one of my cards not only had information, it also had a 10% off coupon! so of course, i HADD to use it! (it would expire on the 15th of this month) so i bought this...

YAY!!! 

here is the website

go there! check her stuff out! i'm sure there is something you would like :) and if not, its just cute anyway!!!

p.s. no real word on my wrist. so far I'm just "dealing with it" and i will be soon learning "how to live with the pain" as you can see...not much progress. but its only saturday. the week is still young till i leave for college....

confusion

so i believe there was some confusion. i actually went to the doctor today, or yesterday...on wednesday.

....

there really isn't anything to say yet cause idk what I'm doing yet....

plus I'm in no mood whatsoever to discuss the day i've had.

but heres the gist of it...

i wake up. do nothing. do the dishes. do nothing. eat. do nothing. play tiny tower. do nothing. get the mail. do nothing. occasionally shower? do my makeup. do nothing. text aaron. go to his house. play super mario bros 3 for hours. looks up youtube videos. go home. go on laptop. sleep. then repeat.

so at home, i srsly do nothing. always. i mean, yeah i'll go out with my mom to do stuff, like get glasses or whatever, but thats not till 2. and up until then....i can't be motivated to do ANYTHINGG. i'm probably the biggest buzz kill you'd ever meet honestly. i don't like whats going on right now, and the scary part is....im somewhat not looking forward to college. now don't get me wrong, OSU is definitely  the school for me, and i want to be a choir teacher, but id rather all of this just go on hold until its all sorted out...............

so much for me not discussing everything...

ill tell you the full report tomorrow, or, sometime soon.

in the meantime, until I'm ready to discus this issue, ill put up funny youtube videos.

they are adorable!!!

this one is just a wee bit funnier in my opinion :)

here we go.

heights. monsters under my bed. loud noises. airplanes. the dark. snakes. tight spaces. germs.  the number 13. 

things I'm not afraid of.

things i am afraid of?

clowns. spiders. having a needle inside me. ferris wheels. and tomorrow.

tomorrow at 10:30 i will be going to my doctors appointment for my wrist. i'll finally find out what the hackers were gonna do about this pesky little cyst. knowing for about a week what this is has been a blessing and a curse i suppose. I'm happy i know what it is now, because i had the chance to look up exactly what it is. i know how far this may take me. but i've been worrying for days and days it feels like, to find out what exactly the plan will be. 

i'm glad the MRI showed something, its surely better than not knowing what's wrong. but initially, after looking it up, i became emotional. this has been a huge struggle i've dealt with, especially this summer. it has also caused a lot of stress. i get more angry with my family than i should, i zone out more, i basically for the past month, haven't given a shit. i feel like i just haven't been, here. not emotionally, anyway. sometimes ill just fall apart just thinking about what if my wrist never gets better...what if i can't do what i want with my life? 

tomorrow, hopefully, ill have all my answers. 

hopefully i'll actually get some sleep tonight as well.....

i need to end on a positive note...

1. my laptop is fully charged. that practically never happens!

2. i've been having tons of fun with Aaron playing Super Mario Bros. 3 on the Wii! I'm becoming not too terrible at it...which rocks!

3. i tried a Redbull yesterday, and it wasn't terrible!

4. work is finally over. thank goodness.

5. i get to babysit again on thursday. babysitting is such a rewarding experience, especially if the kids are genuinely happy to see you.

6. my birthday is coming up :) I'm hoping to have a little bonfire saturday....i should really make a event on the old FB...

7. school starts soon!!! ack!!

8. totally rocking the Tiny Tower.

9. my sister made me tons of really cute daisy pens that i get to keep!

10. benji's back in town :) 

11.god i fucking hate that kid ;)

Uma the cat

so i babysit these two kids, Jude and Cole. they are absolutely adorable. they live out in lakewood, but its not too far, next to a railroad track. they have this cat. her name is Uma. but she's not just any kind of cat, she's a "Sphynx" cat. so i did some "research" (typing in hairless cat into google) and got this.


 "The Sphynx is the most unusual breed because it is a 'hairless' cat. Their naked skin is wrinkled, especially around their head and neck. Striking characteristics include the large paws with highly developed pads and the impressive large ear."


all true so far. it is quiet odd. and when you pet it the skin gets even more wrinkled and looks hilarious. lets continue.

"Sphynx cats are quiet and affectionate. However, it doesn't like to be cuddled. Because of their extreme affectionate nature, these cats need a lot of human attention. Outgoing, they usually get along fairly well with other cats and dogs." (http://www.kittykitty.com/cat-breeds/sphynx.html)

 Now i don't know if Uma is just abnormal or what, but she LOVES to cuddle, as represented in these pictures...

i texted benji some pictures of her. he just kept calling her gross. i said just because it looks funny doesn't mean that its not nice!

thunder and lightning and storms...oh my!!

i keep forgetting its not BEDA...yet i continue to keep posting.....

although i will be 18 in 10 days, i still am afraid of thunderstorms. lame. i know. tonight there was a CRAZY one, like seriously! lightning like every 1.2 seconds!! so i literally waited in my room with my lights on playing games on my iPod till i thought the thunder and lightning had passed. for the most part it has, on account of the fact that the most i hear thunder now is about every 29 seconds, and its quiet faint. but i hear voices coming from outside......its probs the new neighbors. ya know, the ones that have lived there like 3 or 4 months yet i have yet to see any of their faces...yeah those ones....

FINALLY today my wrist is feeling better, by like a lot. i can bend it a lot, i can move around, its refreshing! except i think i can feel the bump where the cyst is. i might just be paranoid, but idk. and i have a doctors appointment on wednesday. i know this sounds crazy, but i'd love it to be fully swollen, total amount of pain every so this doctor doesn't think I'm crazy.....

i have pictures from when i babysat. not of the children, but of their kitty cat. you'll love it :) or...well...think its an alien. until next time!

section three line six fifth sentence.

nothing really exciting happened today, i woke up ubber late, had rice, went to babysit, practically got attacked by a cat, had to wipe the kids butt after he pooped (he's 4...so its somewhat reasonable), and went to the football game. 


oh wait. umm kinda witnessed the most exciting thing EVERR :) today my friend and i ( won't name names....zazu ;) ) well anyway, i was talking to her, and she was talking about homecoming plans. she's been really into this guy for MONTHS now and I'm super excited cause he asked her to the dance :D AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH she'll probably post about it soon, or else she BETTA. it was so magical. i feel like it should have been recorded and made into a movie, it was amazinggg :) 


i know its not my story to tell but I'm just so happy for you zazu!!!!!






anyway we got a call from the doctor yesterday. we had to schedule an appointment. of course when my mom called the doctors office was closed. so she left a message. finally they called back today. my mom set up the appointment time and was kidding asking if she could tell me what was wrong with me or what the MRI showed. but the nurse on the phone said that she actually could tell me what it said, it being my personal record and all. turns out i have his little thing called a synovial cyst. never heard of it? samsies. so i did some research.


this is pretty much what every website says....


notice section 3. now look at the 5th sentence in that paragraph....here it is...


"With a cyst causing functional or aesthetic discomfort (ummm both please...), and when the cyst has been present for over 4 months (umm try 4 years or so), surgery may be recommended. 






......

frack on a stick.


why meeeeee.....

impromptu post/2 a.m. blues

so this whole "wrist problem" hasn't really hit me....until tonight.

a few weeks ago i was told to start playing piano a little more to strengthen my wrist. so they said like 15-20 minutes. i did that at first, but then i realized how much i missed just playing, so i moved it up to about 30 minutes or so, just scales and arpeggios and non-stressful things. but i didn't think it was that big deal. plus, having picked up the cello, i would play that a little more every day as well. but last week i was told to stop playing piano cause we have to get the swelling to go down. it hasn't gone down since, in fact, the pain has worsen. i can't drive that well with my left hand, i can't do anything, and as i found out tonight, i can't even play a simple chord well with my left hand.....

so when aaron and i were driving tonight, and "Secrets" by OneRepublic came on, and i heard the cello playing, i almost fell apart. that song was pretty much the reason why i wanted to start playing cello. i love how the intro sounds, i love the fluidity of it, i just think it sounds beautiful. and i figured out the fingering on the strings for it, i just have to get good at bowing it, and i was trying to figure out how to do it so i could show benji what i could do (my teacher).

knowing that i can't even play a simple line on the piano, nor can i still try and learn how to play an instrument I'm truly passionate about, really hurts....figuratively and literally. honestly, it just sucks major ass. and, of course, until my doctors appointment which could be next week, or the week after.....we won't know. they physical therapists said that i should stop going in cause they obviously weren't helping and we need to just calm it down. well youuuuu're the ones that fucked it up in the first place. thanks Orthopedic Associates. you're cool.

i wasn't gonna post cause now i kinda have 2 in one day, and its not even BEDA anymore. but i just had to get this out there.

perm-alicious

i got my perm redone! my very first perm was when i was a sophomore. i believe i got it in november or so. ever since then i've been getting one once a year. since i usually get it during the middle of the school year, people always notice. after they always ask why my hair is so much curlier. when i say i get a perm, its kinda of a lot to explain. so i figured, before going to college, i would just get my perm to save myself from all the questions. it smells really, really bad. but my hair is super curly! yay! getting my hair permed is perfect, for me anyway. it means that once i shower, if i wanna be law and not put any product in it, i don't have to, cause it'll look presentable anyway. it rocks. well anyway heres some pictures of the process :)

waiting for the chemicals...

it smells delicious. as you can tell by the expression on my face :)

soon ill put up a picture of how my hair looks normal. 

yay monies!!

i went to the eye doctor today. they have to check for glaucoma or whatever cause my mom's side of the family has history for it so i gotta get these gross drops in mah eyes. they sting, and when you wipe them away, it looks like your crying yellow gross stuff. funn. but surprisingly i need to get new glasses, well at least the doctor recommends it cause they'll be helpful in college. YEEESSSS. i love new glasses. now don't get me wrong i like my glasses now, they're just kinda old and...well...i want new ones.

tonight I'm babysitting.
tomorrow night I'm babysitting.
tomorrow's tomorrow I'm babysitting as well.
this has made getting together with some of my friends who still attend high school and have other "commitments" like volleyball...or other random stuff. ehhh. izabela!!
plus labor day weekend I'm working till close every night, including monday. so boo for working so much....but YAY MONIE$$$$!

as of today, benji has been gone for about a week. and he will still be out of town till next week. DAAAA FRACK?!?! :( but luckily I'm not a loser and only have one friend. thats right! I'm not a total loser! yay!! but seriously, its weird hanging out with someone like almost everyday and then not seeing them for like 2 weeks.

WELCOME AARON. aaron has just made a blog. yayy! plus tomorrow is his birthday! ack! hell be 18 in 1 day....JESUS CHRIST! ;)

btw writing a post whilst your eyes are dilated is very hard. but not as hard as driving. i thought i was gonna crash cause i couldn't see anything cause it was soo bright. not safe. at all.