things I'm not afraid of.
things i am afraid of?
clowns. spiders. having a needle inside me. ferris wheels. and tomorrow.
tomorrow at 10:30 i will be going to my doctors appointment for my wrist. i'll finally find out what the hackers were gonna do about this pesky little cyst. knowing for about a week what this is has been a blessing and a curse i suppose. I'm happy i know what it is now, because i had the chance to look up exactly what it is. i know how far this may take me. but i've been worrying for days and days it feels like, to find out what exactly the plan will be.
i'm glad the MRI showed something, its surely better than not knowing what's wrong. but initially, after looking it up, i became emotional. this has been a huge struggle i've dealt with, especially this summer. it has also caused a lot of stress. i get more angry with my family than i should, i zone out more, i basically for the past month, haven't given a shit. i feel like i just haven't been, here. not emotionally, anyway. sometimes ill just fall apart just thinking about what if my wrist never gets better...what if i can't do what i want with my life?
tomorrow, hopefully, ill have all my answers.
hopefully i'll actually get some sleep tonight as well.....
i need to end on a positive note...
1. my laptop is fully charged. that practically never happens!
2. i've been having tons of fun with Aaron playing Super Mario Bros. 3 on the Wii! I'm becoming not too terrible at it...which rocks!
3. i tried a Redbull yesterday, and it wasn't terrible!
4. work is finally over. thank goodness.
5. i get to babysit again on thursday. babysitting is such a rewarding experience, especially if the kids are genuinely happy to see you.
6. my birthday is coming up :) I'm hoping to have a little bonfire saturday....i should really make a event on the old FB...
7. school starts soon!!! ack!!
8. totally rocking the Tiny Tower.
9. my sister made me tons of really cute daisy pens that i get to keep!
10. benji's back in town :)
hey nice pic :)
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