home at last.

so i just got in not too long ago. I'm now sitting in my nice warm bed in my cold dark room...alone. i love my roommates and i especially love OSU, but theres really nothing like being home for the first time since you've been away. i mean, i feel like my room at ohio state in now myy room. it has all that i really need...and now when i come back to westlake, instead of thinking oh what have i forgotten there that i need to bring back to osu, but its what have i forgotten at my new home at Ohio State that i don't have here....

its a weird feeling...but I'm super excited to be back :)

mostly cause i feel like me mom needed me to be home. i guess the house just hasn't been the same with me gone (and I'm being completely serious here). my brother doesn't really call people to hang out that much...hes just content with being by himself. i on the other hand always had people over or was always talking about something...or what have you. its almost like the house is just...too quiet without me.

also, we just learned of some pretty tough news.

my dad went to the dentist the other week cause he had a weird bump or something in the gum by his tooth on his upper right jaw. the dentist thought it'd be nothing, but the sent in a biopsy for testing. they had to send it to two different guys, the first one didn't know what in the world it could be. the second doctor had to test it a few times before he was certain. turns out my dad has cancer. in his jaw. its called osteosarcoma. since this is all still so new to us, we're not too sure what this means. we don't know what stage it is, we don't know how serious this is....all we know is that yes he will have to go through chemotherapy and all that jazz. if you could keep him and our family in your prayers/thoughts that would be greatly appreciated.

lots of people keep asking me how I'm doing (in regards to this situation) and i really don't know what to say. i found out on tuesday, and at school...at first i took it really hard...but being away from it, I'm sad to say that i really just didn't want to think about it. so i didn't. i only thought about it when i brought it up to a few people and when we talked about it. the only time it really hit home of how serious this might be was when i was joking around with benji about how awesome this will be when he's all better and over with for whatever reason and he said "well i hope we can get to that point..." completely serious....


this is way too much to think about right now.

i just thought you all should know, in case my posts seem more dreary than normal.



lets end on a happy note.

its supposed to snow tomorrow. yay!!

okay  lets end on two happy notes....

this picture is absolutely stunning (in my opinion)