so this whole "wrist problem" hasn't really hit me....until tonight.
a few weeks ago i was told to start playing piano a little more to strengthen my wrist. so they said like 15-20 minutes. i did that at first, but then i realized how much i missed just playing, so i moved it up to about 30 minutes or so, just scales and arpeggios and non-stressful things. but i didn't think it was that big deal. plus, having picked up the cello, i would play that a little more every day as well. but last week i was told to stop playing piano cause we have to get the swelling to go down. it hasn't gone down since, in fact, the pain has worsen. i can't drive that well with my left hand, i can't do anything, and as i found out tonight, i can't even play a simple chord well with my left hand.....
so when aaron and i were driving tonight, and "Secrets" by OneRepublic came on, and i heard the cello playing, i almost fell apart. that song was pretty much the reason why i wanted to start playing cello. i love how the intro sounds, i love the fluidity of it, i just think it sounds beautiful. and i figured out the fingering on the strings for it, i just have to get good at bowing it, and i was trying to figure out how to do it so i could show benji what i could do (my teacher).
knowing that i can't even play a simple line on the piano, nor can i still try and learn how to play an instrument I'm truly passionate about, really hurts....figuratively and literally. honestly, it just sucks major ass. and, of course, until my doctors appointment which could be next week, or the week after.....we won't know. they physical therapists said that i should stop going in cause they obviously weren't helping and we need to just calm it down. well youuuuu're the ones that fucked it up in the first place. thanks Orthopedic Associates. you're cool.
i wasn't gonna post cause now i kinda have 2 in one day, and its not even BEDA anymore. but i just had to get this out there.
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