all i wanted was the octane....

i have, indeed, jumped on the apple train and have purchased an iPhone. now don't go crazy, its only the 4, not the 4s....and it all started with me need a new phone. I'm not too proud of this decision....i always told myself id never get one...all i wanted was the Octane, but they were out of stock...but all the other upgrades available for my phone weren't that impressive (even the slightest) and  to get an android would actually have been more expensive than this. i ordered 2 cute cases off amazon (on account of the fact that i couldn't pick just one) but they aren't coming for a while....so i got this other case. i honestly wish i hadn't bought them cause i like this one plenty. maybe i can sell them online or something..........

speaking of which i have tons of random nicknacks and possibly even some clothes that i'd be willing to sell. idk...being in college has really put into perspective what i need and what i use and what i absolutely won't ever use again. but a lot of the stuff I'm having trouble getting rid of has a lot of sentimental value. boooooooooo. ebay seems like wayy too much effort....possibly craigslist would be easier? hmm....

you can't tell but i've been writing this post in weird bursts....im too enthralled with these pictures that popped up...of my ex boyfriend from forever ago....kinda looks like a creep. which makes me feel awesome. am i terrible?

so far this post has been just bs-ing about the why i really should be writing.....my dad went to the doctor today.after surgery, they did more tests and were hoping for 90% necrosis or something like that among his cells....turns out he was only at 50%. we assumed they'd just do chemo, like they'd done before the surgery and things would go along as they were. wrong. instead, he's going to be getting some pretty intense meds. its some kinda of chemo medication thats low on stock and kinda rare right now, they have to import it from england and elsewhere. they're going to do an intense 10 week program of this stuff. so maybe, if things go well and he's healthy (enough) for it, he'll be done in june cause they're starting april 2nd. hopefully he'll be done by june. i know this is all in God's hands, but this is some pretty heavy stuff to deal with. Thankfully I'm home right now and I'm trying to enjoy my dads company while he's still healthy. we're going to the zoo tomorrow.