hopefully i don't sound too bitchy...

kind of a rough night.  not in the way you might be thinking....alcohol was not involved..well for the main part that actually matters.

i mean i might just be acting like a little whiny girl right now, i don't know. but i think i should make kinda like a pro-con/good-bad list of what has just happened tonight...

in chronological order how about

1. woke up late and showered
2. ate lunch at the union 
1. with justin
2. ambria
3. and ana (so fun people)
3. got to talk on Facebook with my friend michele whom i miss, and haven't seen since friday. barely.
4. went to a french horn recital
1. but laura decided she didn't want to sit where i wanted and totally ditched me
2. listened to fabulous music
3. got to converse with some other friends
5. watch an episode of how i met your mother
1. the slutty pumpkin returns (in case you were wondering)
6. had plans to go to dinner with benji
1. he never texted me when to eat so i gave up on that
7. played ukulele with aaron 
8. ate delicious rame noodles. fancy high class shit i know.
1. burnt my tongue
9. watched hilarious videos of mostly spongebob
1. like this one
10. thought i had plans to go out with laura
1. turns out there were plans and that some people were going out but since there wasn't enough room in the car he girl taking her didn't think i could go. she asked laura "if veronica can't come do you still want to go?" and laura responded " no cause that would mean."
2. i told her it was alright so she went out and finished putting my make up on.
11. went to visit a friend trevion and leland the next building over
1. haven't seen them in a while outside of class
2. leland gave me a salt and vinegar chip. eww.
3. trevion left and didn't come back and ended up was just at the front desk the whole time
4. watched terribly unfunny shows that i don't understand how anyone would watch them
12. saw a friend while walking that i haven't seen in forever
1. literally the nicest kid ever.
13. came back to baker
14. played more ukulele while aaron messed around on his computer
15. he introduced me to this hilarious women who makes the best videos
1. heres one thats particularly enjoyably
16. came to my room and I'm writing this post.
1. haven't posted in forever.

the only thing that really pretty much set me off was #10 section 1. "cause that would be mean."......this is not longer elementary school.. if you want to go to a party, say that out loud. if you feel bad for not bringing a friend, either don't go or find a way to bring the friend,otherwise you really don't feel that bad. and obviously if you wanted to make sure your friend was going, you'd say something along the lines that you want to hang out with that person, not just cause if you do go to the party and blow the other person off...thatd be "mean" 

i have no idea if that made any sense to you, but thats okay.

my pro and con list can be deciphered at your own risk. did i have a good night tonight? or should i keep bitching?

I'm personally glad with the direction this blog has taken me. it feels as more like more of a bitch fest for me, which might not be particularly enjoyable for you, le reader, but its what really helps me get through some stuff. its almost like my own alone time. i just zone out of the world and living with two other people and just finally get to talk about me. God how i miss being alone.

i feel like i need to express myself somehow other than just gossiping a little with a friend here and there, otherwise it might just get all bottled up inside and i don't want to fight with laura over something little.

it might also be because i feel guilty not talking to danielle in literally weeks. being disconnected from your bestie is pretty rough, especially when they live 2849043899345657685 miles away to begin with.

ps. lent starts soon. shits about to get real.  Blog erday during lent? maybe??