crazy nonsensical things. do not read....you have been warned

its kinda hard to write a blog when you're in the middle of watching family guy.

but i've been meaning to for a while so here we are.

for the most park...this weekend was pretty okay....but then saturday came around.
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i had a concert that kept me busy from around 330 to 1015. laura and i made plans (again) to go to a party, but the party fell through. i assumed that meant that we would hang out cause the night before she said she wanted to. just as i was about to get back to baker though, she texted me saying she was going to a frat party with a friend from work.

YES THIS SOUNDS BITCHY AGAIN AND ITS SUPER ANNOYING BUT IT HAS A POINT I HOPE.

it occurred to me yesterday that this is not me. this whole being pushed around almost kind of attitude and being "taken for granted" if you will. or maybe it is. whatever the case...i've only recently noticed and cared so much because i shouldn't be alone during this time in my life.

my dad is getting surgery this week on his face to remove his cancerous tumor. we don't know what the outcome will be. i mean sure he'll be fine, probably a little groggy for a few days and has to spend 10 days in the hospital, but he'll be good. but i mean, things are completely different now. right now my dad is not himself, and in a way, i'm not myself either.

**i guess what i'm trying to say is this is a really hard time for me and my family right now, and it sucks i'm not home. the least that my friends could be doing is to be there for me and help keep my mind off things. i mean, true, i don't always show how i'm feeling....so how would they know? but talking about it is hard....LOSE/LOSE situation right here.

this made more sense when i was in bed last night thinking about it. i was gonna blog....but decided to wait.

you see the outcome of this.

on a lighter note...osu memes are funny....