many things crammed into one post

i made the mistake yesterday of showing my friend my blog. luckily i hadn't said anything bad about her. unfortunately i mentioned that i may or may not have "missed"her over winter break a while back.

her name is michele.

we look like this together. lately a lot of people have been asking us if we went to high school together. the answer is no. we did not. is it so weird that two people instantly 'click' when they first meet? no! is that the case for michele and me? again, no.

see we had a mutual friend, Angel. keyword-HAD. he is no longer our friend, nor lauras, no beccas. he is not a good friend, hence the not being friends with him part. i have posted a picture and talked about him in this blog post from earlier.

note to self blog post 

if you care for a picture of him...click da link.

michele on the other hand is a good friend, minus the abusing me, and minus the whole loving cats thing. other than that she's pretty alright. we get along. hang out a lot. have similar interests.  the whole nine yards.

i discovered a new guy on the youtube....he is honestly hilarious, plus SUPER hot. 

"Make a Video About It"

his name is Jimmy Tatro. 

check him outtt.

my camera is back from Japan! a few months ago i noticed my lens cover thing was dented, and then my camera wouldn't open all the way since i still have insurance we sent it in to get fixed. it is now fixed....yay! debby downer.....the button you press to actually take a picture used to be super smooth and easy to press. now it is super sticky or something.....not ideal, but it'll do. plus right this second my memory card won't come out. kinda disappointing.

side-note: i know this is kinda gross, but its a nervous habit. the biting of the nails is still happening. unpleasant as one might assume. 

lent. boo. i am really going to try to not have any meat this lent. it will be hard but i will prevail. also by the end of lent i hope to reduce my swearing to almost none. its kinda hard now, but giving up swearing for lent is probably what i really need right now. i don't feel right when i swear all the time, and lent is to make you focus on what really matters. 

finally got my memory card out. unfortunately, yet again, i failed to remember that my computer does not read my cameras memory card so i need the chord to hook it up. i have many pictures to be uploaded. this will take years to blog about

my roommate laura, who I'm fairly certain you all are familiar with, is making me read "The Hunger Games". the movie is to come out soon. i conversed about this book with my mom and sister. like everyone else in the world, my sister thoroughly enjoyed these books. my mom, on the other hand, did not. she couldn't even get into them. so  heres my dilemma. i saw the trailer for the movie; looks fabulous. read the back of the book for a little "sneak preview" if you will; sound dumb dumb dumb. i understand its a made up story so its gonna sound a little funky...but really? fighting to the death? i don't know.....
plus lately i've only been really reading true stories (SPEAKING OF WHICH----finished the glass castle; great book, great ending, all around, I'm really happy i finished it), nonfiction work. so this made-up fairy tale doesn't really seem to toot my horn right about now. but I'm going to give it a go... btw i am procrastinating reading this book right now by blogging. hence the super long post :) i just feel like if i pick out a book i really wanna read, I'm gonna read it and enjoy it. but if someone tells me i "have" to read it or i "should" or if its even an assigned book, its gonna detour me from reading it. i told laura she "best back off" so i can have my space to read. so far, not working out so well....i'll keep you updated as to how it goes.



last part will be short



my father is doing well. the swelling has gone down significantly, he's walking, being fed through a feeding tube, and talking is getting easier. who knows, maybe he'll get to go home early. speaking of which, I'm going home again this coming weekend. this is exactly what i need. i miss not being home.

drunken blogs

one might say i am drunk.

i mean. it is 12:20 sunday morning/ saturday night.

and i may have been drinking...but i mean....what are ya gonna do.

laura went home. she is sick and wants to get rest. I'm going to a party with michele.

one should not blog whilst drunk. not a great idea. i feel like i might say silly things.

I'm listening to foo fighters.

you should too.

why thank you, hormones, now is a perfect time to get my period. when im already super emotional....

my dads big day.

this days has been long.
we woke up at 4:30, after about maybe 4 hours of sleep.
we left at 5:15 and got at the hospital at 6.
they took him right away, but we got to see him around 7:30.
they gave him some twilightish stuff around 8:25 and wheeled him away.
we didn't see him again until around 9:15 this evening
LONGGG day.
luckily our aunt came to break up the day, as did a good family friend ellen.
lots of people were texting us all, checking up to make sure things were going well.
we really appreciate all the love and support.

this is the first time in my life that i honestly wish i didn't have to leave this place. i miss being home, and i miss not being here for such important, hard times in my family's life.

i would say more but I'm just too exhausted and completely unthrilled to be going back to school tomorrow. my spirits are high for my dad, but my mood is somber i guess one might say.

love you dad

august 2009

a talent is born

i used to bite my nails when i was younger.

now i think i just bite my nails when I'm nervous or stressed.

needless to say my nails have seen better days.

i just bit my nails.
what the heck is wrong with me.
i will regret this.

i feel like Shel Silverstein, writing all these haikus.

here we go.

tomorrow is my dads surgery.

he has to be there at 6, and we are leaving at 5:15.

im super jittery, and i feel like I'm on the verge of crying every minute.

2 days at home is not enough time.

crazy nonsensical things. do not read....you have been warned

its kinda hard to write a blog when you're in the middle of watching family guy.

but i've been meaning to for a while so here we are.

for the most park...this weekend was pretty okay....but then saturday came around.
**for a summary of all this jump down to the **
i had a concert that kept me busy from around 330 to 1015. laura and i made plans (again) to go to a party, but the party fell through. i assumed that meant that we would hang out cause the night before she said she wanted to. just as i was about to get back to baker though, she texted me saying she was going to a frat party with a friend from work.

YES THIS SOUNDS BITCHY AGAIN AND ITS SUPER ANNOYING BUT IT HAS A POINT I HOPE.

it occurred to me yesterday that this is not me. this whole being pushed around almost kind of attitude and being "taken for granted" if you will. or maybe it is. whatever the case...i've only recently noticed and cared so much because i shouldn't be alone during this time in my life.

my dad is getting surgery this week on his face to remove his cancerous tumor. we don't know what the outcome will be. i mean sure he'll be fine, probably a little groggy for a few days and has to spend 10 days in the hospital, but he'll be good. but i mean, things are completely different now. right now my dad is not himself, and in a way, i'm not myself either.

**i guess what i'm trying to say is this is a really hard time for me and my family right now, and it sucks i'm not home. the least that my friends could be doing is to be there for me and help keep my mind off things. i mean, true, i don't always show how i'm feeling....so how would they know? but talking about it is hard....LOSE/LOSE situation right here.

this made more sense when i was in bed last night thinking about it. i was gonna blog....but decided to wait.

you see the outcome of this.

on a lighter note...osu memes are funny....

hopefully i don't sound too bitchy...

kind of a rough night.  not in the way you might be thinking....alcohol was not involved..well for the main part that actually matters.

i mean i might just be acting like a little whiny girl right now, i don't know. but i think i should make kinda like a pro-con/good-bad list of what has just happened tonight...

in chronological order how about

1. woke up late and showered
2. ate lunch at the union 
1. with justin
2. ambria
3. and ana (so fun people)
3. got to talk on Facebook with my friend michele whom i miss, and haven't seen since friday. barely.
4. went to a french horn recital
1. but laura decided she didn't want to sit where i wanted and totally ditched me
2. listened to fabulous music
3. got to converse with some other friends
5. watch an episode of how i met your mother
1. the slutty pumpkin returns (in case you were wondering)
6. had plans to go to dinner with benji
1. he never texted me when to eat so i gave up on that
7. played ukulele with aaron 
8. ate delicious rame noodles. fancy high class shit i know.
1. burnt my tongue
9. watched hilarious videos of mostly spongebob
1. like this one
10. thought i had plans to go out with laura
1. turns out there were plans and that some people were going out but since there wasn't enough room in the car he girl taking her didn't think i could go. she asked laura "if veronica can't come do you still want to go?" and laura responded " no cause that would mean."
2. i told her it was alright so she went out and finished putting my make up on.
11. went to visit a friend trevion and leland the next building over
1. haven't seen them in a while outside of class
2. leland gave me a salt and vinegar chip. eww.
3. trevion left and didn't come back and ended up was just at the front desk the whole time
4. watched terribly unfunny shows that i don't understand how anyone would watch them
12. saw a friend while walking that i haven't seen in forever
1. literally the nicest kid ever.
13. came back to baker
14. played more ukulele while aaron messed around on his computer
15. he introduced me to this hilarious women who makes the best videos
1. heres one thats particularly enjoyably
16. came to my room and I'm writing this post.
1. haven't posted in forever.

the only thing that really pretty much set me off was #10 section 1. "cause that would be mean."......this is not longer elementary school.. if you want to go to a party, say that out loud. if you feel bad for not bringing a friend, either don't go or find a way to bring the friend,otherwise you really don't feel that bad. and obviously if you wanted to make sure your friend was going, you'd say something along the lines that you want to hang out with that person, not just cause if you do go to the party and blow the other person off...thatd be "mean" 

i have no idea if that made any sense to you, but thats okay.

my pro and con list can be deciphered at your own risk. did i have a good night tonight? or should i keep bitching?

I'm personally glad with the direction this blog has taken me. it feels as more like more of a bitch fest for me, which might not be particularly enjoyable for you, le reader, but its what really helps me get through some stuff. its almost like my own alone time. i just zone out of the world and living with two other people and just finally get to talk about me. God how i miss being alone.

i feel like i need to express myself somehow other than just gossiping a little with a friend here and there, otherwise it might just get all bottled up inside and i don't want to fight with laura over something little.

it might also be because i feel guilty not talking to danielle in literally weeks. being disconnected from your bestie is pretty rough, especially when they live 2849043899345657685 miles away to begin with.

ps. lent starts soon. shits about to get real.  Blog erday during lent? maybe??

pinterest

why is pinterest  so freaking addictive??

i mean, yeah its totally awesome and i can find things....oh so many things in which i love, want or need.  but it takes up so much of my time!! erk!

the only bad side about pinterest....i get so used to liking things and then being able to see them later that i forget that on sites like...oh idk...facebook, when you like something then you cannot see them again :( boo.

i just slammed my thumb into my drawer trying to save piece of gum from michele.

it doesn't look like much, but it hurts to press the space bar with it. and its my right thumb. boo you michele.

life is good.

its true. it is good, it was good, and it will always be good to me.

since last i have written my dad has shaved his head. it was kinda tough not being able to be there, but luckily the weekend after i went home. boy does my dad look funny. but he's a trooper. after the first round of chemo, he had to take a few days off of work to recover, but then was able to do some small, easier tasks (not involving lifting a million heavy packages).unfortunately after this round of chemo, it hit him harder. he couldn't go to work because he could barely do anything without getting exhausted. literally not even 2 months ago, when someone would come home with groceries, my dad would be the first to help bring them in, and bring in about 5 bags at a time mind you EASILY. now he can barely go outside without getting tired, or put things away in the fridge. i literally watched my dad wear himself out moving the milk and lettuce around in the fridge to make it all fit. when he was done, he layer down on the floor to even catch his breath. i know all this is killing him that he can't do more, but soon it will pass.

he even was surprised that sunday when he went outside. "back in the day" he would be the first to know what the temperature was like. now, at 5 in the afternoon, he wasn't even prepared for how cold it was. i heard him say "oh wow!". my dad isn't the kind of guy who finds out the weather at 5 pm. but for now, i suppose he is.

but God is good, and so is what's ahead in this journey through our lives.

the other night we had a lot of people in our room having a good time....this is my reaction to all the photos i found that we took, in the morning

terrified and confused.

tonight though laura and i made an awesome thing for our new apartment :) which by the way...we did purchase and is ours :D yay!

anyway she told me not to post any pictures till it was done....on Facebook :) sneakkyyy i know....

this isn't the finished project but this is what i took on my computerr...more to come later

backwards yess. still unskilled with my camera usage on this laptop. 

lauronica (laura and veronica)

creative. i know.

half way there!!!

more to come soon!!

LAST THING! i read a book :) it's really helped me with a lot and its overall a great book. heres a link to the website cause i have enough pictures on here.....its called Heaven is For Real. CHECK IT OUTTT