disappointment at it's finest

I had made plans with Aaron a week ago to watch harry potter all weekend. tonight he texted me and said he couldn't anymore because of college things or something like that. I found out later after driving past his house(not to stalk but because I had to cut through to a different street) and low and behold, that bitch amy's car was outside his house.

he not only blew me off for her and on plans weve been making for days, but also on our real last "normal" weekend as seniors.

next there's omea state contest, then music al a mode, the prom and then graduation.

I mean I could hear his side of things but I'm sick of it. when he was dating his last girlfriend he did this to me too and I'm not going to fight it anymore. he obviously doesn't want to be my friend or doesn't value our friendship like I do so whatever.

screw you Aaron. I'm done.

but thank you benji...you were truely a great friend to me tonight. love you bestie!!!

shopping.

i went shopping today for prom shoes. 


i ended up with a free water bottle from PNC cause "how many times do you look for a water bottle...and cant find one?!!" 
the sales man actually asked me that...then asked me how old i was cause i said my sister went to dayton *in regards to my t-shirt i'd been wearing* and i said "sorry 17"


thinking about that now...one might think i could have been gotten "hit on" as they say. but really he just wanted me to open a banking account...which i cant...cause im 17....


ANYWAY.


i got some shoes...i really love them :) 


PLUS i got a pair of steve madden sandles :) LOOOVVVEEEE.


then i went to bath and bodyworks....mistake. i love that store...but i cant leave without buying something. and i knew that walking in, yet i HADD to go in. i ended up with 5 different soaps *5 for $15* and some good smelling spray stuff. YUUUMMMYYY.


i forgot tomorrow is block day. i have 4 classes. yyyyeeesssssssssssss. 


kinda randomish thoughts for right now but thats okay :)

thinkin ima need some HP lovin this weekend :)....i mean...harry potter marathon!!!!

*sigh* probably the only ginger ill ever truly love.

it's kind of a funny story...

so i was to explain why i was up at 2:30 in the morning leaving church in this post but...i decided i wanted to blog about this movie :)

oh my goodness. SUCH a good movie.

its about this boy, Craig, who has suicidal thoughts. he checks himself into a hospital and ends up staying for observation for 5 days. he meets Benny (Zach Galifianakis) and becomes buddies with him, and has a conflict in love interests with Noelle (Emma Roberts) and some other random girl in the movie.

this movie was really reallyy good!! plus it got a few good chuckles. this movie just makes me wish i read more so then i would actually read the book. but honestly i probably wont. but a girl can wish cant she?

watch this movie.

oh and the bloopers were hilarious :)

is just leaving church.
amazing. simply and truely amazing.

veronica...your goin to church at 2 in da morning??

hopefully ill explain later today :)

hiatus?

I'm sorry to disappoint everyone.
I haven't blogged yesterday and this one barely counts.
I've been so busy with sleeping and cleaning and going to church that I haven't had time to blog.
tomorrow I have hopes to actually write something meaningful.
today on the other hand I do not.

but I leave you with one thought...

we are like sponges.
whatever we soak up is our gift to God.
though we are like sponges, we choose what we absorb, be it good or bad,unlike sponges.

can't wait to wake up tomorrow :) it's gonna smell great.

Samson

i dont really know this song by Regina Spektor, but i listened to it yesterday and i think i like it! she has a coolio sound but i just dont listen to your music....maybe i'll start sometime soon!!


har har is coming over any minute :D


and i figured i havent written a real blog in like 23489 days *thank you musical.....and mostly laziness*


but yes i have a prom dress :) 


and a table for prom :)


just not a group for pictures before....AKWARDD.


im trying to find out but my efforts have been futile.






chorale has 7 rehearsals till state contest. we almost know all the notes in our 3 new songs. but we havent done anything musical with them yet. boo.


and although yes we do have kind of a lot of time to do all that, i still get really upset because people think we have all the time in the world. WE DON'T PEOPLE! i rreeeaallllyyy  wanna do well at states my senior year. i really do. but we can't if people dont care. or at least show they care. 


i understand chorale is fun and its a blast to be in...but its just frustrating that we cant have fun while doing serious work...


so if i seem "under the weather" or if "nothings wrong" thats why.


its nothing personal...i just want to be the best we can be and me telling errone to SHUT UP every 4 seconds really isnt getting anyone anywhere...




I THINK HAR HAR IS HEAR!


ayedos!

ima goin to bed early.

but i got a prom dress :) yay!

sunday comes after...wards

shame on me.


i again am not writing a well written blog. but i am writing it on my computer this time...so theres a plus!


im playing CityVille on Facebook right now. i hate it. its so dumb...but yet...so addicting. you can not play for weeks....mind you that never happens to me...and you could just jump right back in. 


Aaron has to decide which college hes going to before school tomorrow...its between OSU and BW....i hope he chooses OSU...but well find out tomorrow i guess.


there is a shit load of drama happening on in my life...that honestly doesnt really concern me at all but somehow im involved. plus theres choir drama which makes me mad.


but all i want to say now is how fun the musical was. i enjoyed every minute of it today and this weekend. i love everyone who was in it and im so happy i got to be in it this year. 


closing thoughts....


i hate you adam. and im scared for you, and im scared of you, though ill never admit it to your face.
zazu i love youuuu!!
har har im sorry for not texting you back...this day has been crazyy and ill probably fill you in tomorrow.
i love you abbey! 
im really glad i got to know nora better today. 
i can't believe easter is on sunday. eek!
cant wait to get my prom dress :)
i hope i get a chance to watch the p-game....like the actual movie...soon


i have way too many missing materials from the library.....

my blog.

I feel like my blog hasn't suffered from BEDA...if anything it's helped it be better cause I force myself to blog everyday. unfortunately whenever I blog lately it's right before bed, on my itouch, and really half heartedly. so I'm hoping tomorrow I will right an amazing blog at a reasonable time during the day about this weekend, the play, my best friend, my pmsing fiasco, my friends, my not friends, and my life in general.

again, my most sincere apologies.


I might start another blog, because I feel it helps typing out stuff, but sometimes it just could sound like a diary. idk if that sentence made sence. I'm to tired to even proofread this.

late BEDA

this counts for friday....even though its saturday....and itll be lame cause im sooo tired......


the play went amazingly!


applesneeze...not so amazinng.


driving with zazu was so fun :)


picking up benji was fun


driving with benji when i was half asleep wasnt as fun


sitting in the parking lot of circle k was awkward


but honestly the play was so fun :)


im really excited to sleep in tomorrow morning


but i was sad cause half of the cast wasnt at applesneeze...especially some kids who really pushed for everyone to goo......


i like talking on the phone for extended periods of time, and it not be awkward once :)

goodness

I wish I updated my Facebook status more cause then I'd right a million different statuses....
Veronica.......
"loves danielles new and adorable shoes! sorry I didn't text you back after play practice"
"is glad to have worked out things with my best friend. sometimes all you need is a good hour and 20 minutes talking to them and it's all good!"
"loves grace :)"
"can't wait for the musical to open tomorrow!!!!!!"
"was surprised how much benji does know about me :)"
"switches from 3rd to 1st person a lot in my statuses..."


oh and last one...
"has a date for prom :D"






today I filled out a website survey for Baldwin Wallace college why I dint with to attend and why I'll be attending The Obio State University instead.

is it inapproppraite to say "it is my destiny"

realization

on the band trip i took last weekend i made conversation with a "chaperone"...he graduated 5 years ago and is 22...so he was more of just a chill kinda of guy.


but i was talking to him in between performances that day just about high school and then college. i asked if hes friends with very many of his high school friends...and he said only two.


he went on to say that everyone in westlake is fake.


i said not everyone, and he replied that the majority is. 


i dont know if its just westlake, but i have a hunch that its high school.


i have many many friends, and i know a few of my close band and choir friends i'll keep in touch with. but also, some of my close friends, specifically band, i dont know if i want their friendship after high school.


i'v been crazy busy with this musical and my family has been going with a lot with members in and out of the hospital, and honestly, the one that should be there, the one that told me that he's a better friends cause "we've known each other since elementary school"...he should be there for me now. and my other friend, my best guy friend...hes not doing that much either.


now yes we have tons of fun together, and thats all hunky dorey, but everything thinks Veronica can just do everything by herself. Veronica doesnt need help with anything, she'll take care of herself. 


well ya know what, fine.


i dont know if im just writing this cause im upset, or if its actually true. all i know is that once i go to college, i wont be starting over.


yes i will be renueing myself. ill make new friends. friends that dont care what other people think of them. friends who can be crazy and loud, but also know how to be serious, and can help me when im down.


do i like my friends friendship now? yes. do i need it now? yes


do i need those friends after all this petty high school drama? no. nor do i want it.

btw i love your hair today :) your so pretty

Im blogging during chorale just har har :) i just read your letter and i know exactly what you mean. Luckily i get to leave high school in i few weeks <3

new deodorant

so i got this new deodorant....and it smells really good :) its put me in a good mood all day :)

tomorrow is wacky wednesday for the musical spirit day....idk how wacky ima get....

my ankle is still hugee boo

school is not my utmost priority. and im sad to say neither is blogging :( its watching avatar when i come home from play practice.....fail i know

YAY!! abbey got into NHS :D im so happy for you girl!! but unfortunately, some VERY deserving people didnt get in...which makes me very very upset....

i want to become facebook friends with my ex cause i just discovered he has a facebook like 2 seconds ago...but only to stalk him. but i dont wanna actually be fbook friends with him....DILEMMA!

i think ill change my facebook prof pic soon.

where is you billy??

fml

this post is gonna suck ass.
play practice lasted forever.
I don't have the right costumes.
I twisted my ankle and it's huge now.
I have a latin quiz tomorrow ima fail.
I'm srsly goin crazy.
I'm up too late.
I need to watch avatar the last airbender.
I still haven't a date to prom and couldn't even begin to know who I'd have fun with.

my prayers are with you uncle les.

fuck my life. seriously.

this is my favorite kind of weather :)
its pouring rain...yet its really bright outside. yay :)

p.s.
i have never loved someone or something as much as i love my bed at this very moment in time.

happiness = ATL

yay! i still blogged every day in April *thus far
that makes me happy
you know what else makes me happy?
band.
my friends.
Morgan's mad bracelet making skillz.
Nintendo DS Mario kart games for 4 hours.
lightning mcqueen pillows.
good music.
sunny days.
green grass.
comfy sweatshirts.
green lantern capes.
sleeping next to your best friend.
toms shoe tan lines.
not seeing your friend almost all day, but when you do, they're genuinely happy to see you.
getting to know people better.
having wifi.
your own shower.
sleeping in a normal position on your own bed.
not dealing with reality.


those things make me happy.
i dislike the fact that when i looked on facebook i saw people bitchin n moanin about stupid school stuff or ridiculous petty drama. thats what i love about band trips. its like, a whole different world. where none of that stuff matters. 


you know what else makes me happy?
when i sign on facebook and my best friend starts talking to me on chat about the trip i just came back from.


you know what doesnt make me happy though?
when they dont even know what kind of trip it was....






kinda a damper on everything.


but honestly that was the best trip i have ever taken ever. it made everything else from all my years in high school seem so tiny compared to this. 




if i named everyone that i remember having a good time with, id almost name everyone...
but thank you Madi, Lindsay, Emily, Aaron, Austin, Stephanie, Josh, Lauren, Amy, Danny, Alec and probably Benji, bus 3 <3 and everyone else :)


you guys made my senior year rock :)










tech week, lets do dis.

ummm this trip has been amazing this trip has been amazing my green lantern cape is amazing my friends are amazing :)

cant wait for the drive home tomorrow :)

rovdog: everyone go take showers now!
me: you're not my mom mr. rovniak :)

you know that director who forgets hes not your mom? yeah i love that guy :)

umm...best trip evah? i think yes!
i love everyone in band...especially my roomies :)

what do a fish and a coke have in common?

bubbles :)

ATL 2011...
i love my roommates :)
but the bathroom is creepily familiar to the last band trip.

i hope this counts for BEDA!!

4 a.m. thoughts of veronica...
i used the shampoo like conditioner.
if i forget my Nintendo DS so help me God....
its really cold.
i hate mornings. period.

facebook update

so i just wrote a huge blog, but i had to put this up too.....so i put my blog web address on facebook. its in the info section like any sane human being, but are people gonna notice that? are they gonna find this and be like "hey veronica has a blog? i should read it!" cause i dont know if thatd be good or not.....ack!!!


i guess ill just wait and see

ATL

my packing for Atlanta is COMPLETE!
yay!
but i feel like im forgetting things...which would suck.


play practice let out at 9:25ish tonight. nbd right? wrong. considering we started at 4...plusss i had to start packing for this crazy fun filled band trip about to happen. but luckily i finished...before midnight....so i can go to sleep and wake up...at 4 to be at school before 5...awesome. but ill talk more about that when it comes around i suppose.


so about these followers.....
yay har har and zazu! i dont really know what else to do except maybe add this....

pretty coolio guy huh??

and har har....i didnt mean to call you dumb like "omg look at her shes dumb!" like the thing you said was funny as hell and when i think of something being terribly funny i think "hide yo kids, hide yo wife..." ya know....so im really sorry if i made your day sad :(

i knew i had more to say earlier cause i was in a terrible mood, said f**k like 105724803 times and just hated everything, but luckily i have some good friends and we just bitched in the car as i drove them home from play practice.

but anyway....yay atlanta!!! im really excited cause 1 its my senior year 2 its all my band friends :) and 3 i miss school *and play practice* 

WHAT A DEAL!!!!!

but im also a little not as excited too. we have band trips every other year, so i went on the other band trip and it was to orlando. so fun...or so i thought.
i was in a bad, no terrible relationship with this guy who was terrible and we pretty much broke up over the band trip. it sucked. i spent most of my time either texting him, waiting for him to text me, apologizing through texts to him for not texting him, or, my favorite part, sitting up almost all night in my hotel bathroom, bawling as i talked to this loser on the phone, trying to make him forgive me for absolutely nothing. 
fortunately, i had an amazing friend, Kellie who helped me and took me under her wing. she graduated that year, and sadly we're not really friends anymore, which makes me sad. very sad.
i can only hope that when i graduate i wont do that to my friends. i dont think i will though, these friendships i have now are different, but dont get me wrong, i appreciate Kellie and all she did for me. it's what i needed then. i just hope that certain high school friends arent just a "phase" or something like that.


btw i dont wish to be thought of as "one of those girls" who is crazy into their relationship. 
i mean....yeah that was me, but that was me two years ago. now im a strong, wonderful person :)


but srsly...
ATL betta be 23280x better than ORL.


i also hope that i can still post from my ipod during this trip, cause i wanted to do BEDA....but i cant if i dont over the trip.....


well see what happens i guess.


im bringing 4 pairs of shoes on this trip, plus shoes im wearing on the bus...
overkill?


this spell check says im spelling texting wrong. if technology doesnt even know how to spell texting, something must be changed.


ok so this isnt tuesday anymore, but ima count this as my tuesday blog, cause i started typing at like 11:40....


goodnight CLE, hello ATL :)

oh stop it zazu!

last minute thought

i love you :)


you're considerate.
you're nice.
you didnt need to text me at 10:20 but you did.
you didnt need to apologize cause you didnt do anything.
sorry i started venting about something that didnt really matter.
you're a great friend.


thanks a million!!


your fellow rafiki. 

random blogg

i saw this and thought it was hilarious.

• i like my nail polish.
• i feel like I'm gonna throw up. I'm not sick but i have allergies apparently...stupid i know...but its true. 
• apparently telling someone you vomit is "too much information"......does not everyone get sick once and a while? or am i the only one? 
• i hate scholarships with a passion. 
• it doesn't really work too well when your typing and not looking cause your head is on your desk....
• because of my incessant vomiting, I'm taking this medication. its to stop you from throwing up, but it also makes your throat dry. and mouth. booo.
• i am sad. this summer is to be the best summer EVAH but so far it seems like its gonna suck. a lot. my best friend is going to be having her grad party when I'm at camp, mind you a camp that we have gone to every year since 6th grade. we have the most fond memories there then any place else. its probably why i am who i am today. and she cant go, nor can i go to her grad party. i don't know half her friends and oh did i mention she lives in Virgina? cause she does. and it sucks. i miss her :(
• i have a cut on my hand...and idk how i got it....
• i should probably start packing for Atlanta. we leave Wednesday at 5 in the morning and i havent even begun to pack. its Monday night. awesomesauceeeeee.
• my blogs have become very lazy since i first started. 
• being a "leader" isnt all its cracked up to be.
• i was gonna apologize for being a bitch sometimes. but i realized im not a bitch. i just say how i feel about certain things and hopefully i wont say it to someone that it'll actually offend. sometimes i need to control what i say. i dont say it to be mean, it just comes out sometimes. im not a bitch.

i think ima throw up now.


thanks for the rain. please send some daisies our way soon!

RE: April 3, 11:20 pm

my most sincere apologies.
I tried to send a picture and a normal text message post....bit alas it has failed.
it came out as all blibberish.
I'm sorry.
but luckily I found out that indeed I CAN post from my iPod whilst lying in bed.
half ass I know.


school starts tomorrow
Atlanta on wednesday.


be prepared for a million tiny text message posts....if I can ever figure it out...


sorry again blog.


ps...finally figured out how to spell lying.
so proud of myself.

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whoa! hot sinders!!


avatar the last airbender is where its at!

how does she do it......

oh my goodness......TWO POSTS IN ONE DAY?!?! 

what is she thinking.

what she is thinking is that she found the BEST website on the face of the planet.

here it is.

there are amazing inspirational quotes on here and i know how im gonna blog for a while :) find one that'll suite me for that brief moment and then make it relevant to my life :)

here goes!

brilliant.

i love spring!

but i also love winter...

and fall..

and summer.

but what i love about all of those really have something in common, i love the weather and feel about each and  every one of them

i love winter because i love snow

fall, for the leaves and the changing colors and that amazing "fall smell"

summer rocks- flowers galore!

and spring :) good ol spring! there are flowers, and animals, and trees, and....just happiness is in the air!

plus its spring break. and although im sick this week has rocked so far!

i can wait to wake up to birds chirping by my window. you know, that kind of weather ;)

oh hello spring break!

yeahh...about that.....


so far its been tons of fun! i went to the zoo and had saw a amazingly funny movie


THE PRODUCERS


herlarious.


anddd i went karoeking and went to little sibs weekend and had a sleep over and had a nice long talk with a great friend :)


but unfortunatly....i am sick.
i feel pretty much fine...i just wokeup this morning...throwing up.....a lot. 


EWW!!!!
but the worst part is i have scholarships to do...and i cant...boo!!!


but today is my best friends birthday :D 


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIELLE!!!!
shes 18. wow! 


thats all i really got cause i gotta eat mah soup and watch tv...cause ya know...im sick :)


oh btw it snowed...over spring break....lameeeee