God is good.

karma.
now i do not know the exact definition of this word, but i do know some things about this word. some people put a lot of belief into this word. they think it will deterime everything in their life. karma is their destiny.
karma has been known to me as "what comes around goes around".
karma is "good things happen to good people, and not so good things happen to not so good people".

i dont believe in karma.
i cant let myself believe in karma, for if i did, that would mean that there are a lot more bad people in this world than good. that my friends and family members must have done some terrible things to have such hard lives thrusted upon them.

no. karma cant be real.

it cant be. it just doesnt make sense.

these past few weeks have been really hard on me and my family. my dad found out that hes not going to be in chemo for about 10-15 weeks, itll be till the end of september. 5 sessions of 5 weeks. he just finished the first session. that means 20 more weeks.

why did this happen, how could this be happening? i keep asking myself this, how could this horrible horrible disease be my dad's , my dad's cross to bare.



well thats isnt it?


his cross to bare.

i know a lot of people out there dont believe in God, or religion, or anything like that. and i feel bad for you and i pray for you, because honestly, in times like these, God and prayer are the only things that are constant in my life. my dad is my life. but God is life. without faith i dont know how i would have the strength to even get up in the morning. to go to class. to put on a smiling face. to do my homework. to do anything, even blog about things.

this is why i havent blogged in a while, i know pretty deep.

my dad has barely sick a day in his life. i thought the hard part would be over, when its only really begun.

i know my dad is getting through this thanks to his positive attitude and faith in God, and i can only follow in his footsteps.

i guess this post can be summed up in 3 words.

God is good.