Here we go. Round two

One week down, two more to go! During this month I'm a counselor/music director for this church camp in the middle of Ohio. It's about an hour and a half away from where I live so not too bad. But unfortunately it's super hot and we have no ac, there have been many thunderstorms, and apparently, this week is supposed to be the most exhausting. Yayy. Last week was little kids week, from ages 6-11. Some of them were the cutests things on the face of the planet! Others, were quiet a handful lets say.... This week is J.O. (junior olympics) so all the kids (grades 5 to 12) do all sports stuff. I mean luckily i personally don't have to but still it's tiring. Luckily last night I got to spend the night at home so that was lovely! Ben if I was only there for less than a day. I hope this week is better. That's all I can say

pretty good.

these next few days are about to get a hella more interesting.
today: babysitting Cole at 3:30 (i.e. WORLDS CUTEST KID)
thursday: go over to graces to swim/tan, 7pm meet with a friend about church camp i will be counseling at and be the music director
friday: 2pm meet with Fr. Joe about church camp, then leave for SYLVANNIA for the weekend with BRITTANY!!! (you know, the new girl from the pictures)
STAY TILL SUNDAY morning (ehh) then leave to come home and visit my dad in the hospital

hes on his (hopefully) last round of chemo!

then LEAVE SUNDAY AFTERNOON to go to westerville for an ACDA [american choral directors association] conference where i'll get to stay with a really good friend, Ryan!

this week is turning out to be pretty good.

finals week

school is coming down to a close, and i'm pretty swamped with finals and my jury...but i wanted to take some time and post some lovely photos :)

the weekend before finals

trying to study for music history

still staying

laura before her last concert

YAY FRIENDS

this is brittany. she is new. but she is also hilarious and i love her. unfortunately i only  really became her friend these past two weeks. but luckily we have the next 3 years. more on her soon? i think yes.

going home on friday finally. 

it will get better?

decisions decisions decisions.

thats what lives all about. making them and learning to deal with the consequences.

i could have decided two days ago to go home for this long weekend, but instead, i choose to stay at OSU for a few reasons.

all these reasons seem dumb at this very point in time.

i just recently finished almost complete mental breakdown because i want to go home. i want to go home so bad it hurts. and it sucks that i choose to stay here, but being an adult sucks sometimes i guess.

although i am feeling this way now, have no fear, this weekend WILL get better. its like....my second to last weekend in my first year of college!

after all, grace is coming down this weekend :) and oh how i miss her!!

summer please!!

i have about 2 and a half weeks left till my summer break, and i can NOT wait!!
1. get out of this small, cramped dorm room
2. be with my family <3
3. make some money
     a. babysitting
     b. possibly working at a church camp with decent pay (finger crossed)
     c. babysitting even moreeeeeeee
4. going to mohican possibly?!?!?!!
5. getting tan!
6. coming back again in the fall as a sophomore, in my own apartment, taking a lot more of fun classes :) [corney i know...]
7. being publicity chair for ACDA [american choral directors of america] and getting to work with someone i really admire and idolize :))

and what really got me in the mood was reading this amazing blog!!!

CHECK IT OUT. YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT.

how to have the BEST summer ever

if you're already having your summer....you best be doing (some of) these things!!

happy birthday to michele!

happy birthday to michele!

her birthday was yesterday, and although it was somewhat uneventful, she finally got to open the present i made for her so many months ago over winter break, and i think she liked it a lot!

i didn't put any pictures up of it because sometimes when she's bored or procrastinating, id like to think she trys to find my blog and read it. but anyway heres a picture of what i made :)

couldda turned out better but whatcha gonna do.

she liked it

thats all that matters

her birthday party will be this weekend. yay for birthdays!

God is good.

karma.
now i do not know the exact definition of this word, but i do know some things about this word. some people put a lot of belief into this word. they think it will deterime everything in their life. karma is their destiny.
karma has been known to me as "what comes around goes around".
karma is "good things happen to good people, and not so good things happen to not so good people".

i dont believe in karma.
i cant let myself believe in karma, for if i did, that would mean that there are a lot more bad people in this world than good. that my friends and family members must have done some terrible things to have such hard lives thrusted upon them.

no. karma cant be real.

it cant be. it just doesnt make sense.

these past few weeks have been really hard on me and my family. my dad found out that hes not going to be in chemo for about 10-15 weeks, itll be till the end of september. 5 sessions of 5 weeks. he just finished the first session. that means 20 more weeks.

why did this happen, how could this be happening? i keep asking myself this, how could this horrible horrible disease be my dad's , my dad's cross to bare.



well thats isnt it?


his cross to bare.

i know a lot of people out there dont believe in God, or religion, or anything like that. and i feel bad for you and i pray for you, because honestly, in times like these, God and prayer are the only things that are constant in my life. my dad is my life. but God is life. without faith i dont know how i would have the strength to even get up in the morning. to go to class. to put on a smiling face. to do my homework. to do anything, even blog about things.

this is why i havent blogged in a while, i know pretty deep.

my dad has barely sick a day in his life. i thought the hard part would be over, when its only really begun.

i know my dad is getting through this thanks to his positive attitude and faith in God, and i can only follow in his footsteps.

i guess this post can be summed up in 3 words.

God is good.